MY WISHLIST:
[#o1] spa sessions
[#o1] a chanel 2.55 classic in lambskin & silverware
[#o2] a wallet
[#o3] a holiday
[#o4] brooches
[#o5] new diamond pendant
[#o6] diamond solitaire earrings .5ct!
[#o7] peach scented lipbalm
[#08] almond scented shampoo

Chelle.

"To be nobody but yourself, in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else, means to fight the hardest battle which any human-being can fight; and never stop fighting."
...e.e.Cummings ♥♥♥

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♥John
♥Robin
♥Diana
♥Dawn
♥Mengwen
♥David
♥Tabitha

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so much has been happening to me lately.

big quarrel.
grandpapa in hospital.
friends dispute.
job woes.
money woes.
time-management woes.

big quarrel? yet to receive an answer. literally disappointed me to the core.

my gramps went for an op last night. went to visit him this afternoon with mummy. he looks so heart-wrenchingly skinny. so vulnerable. yet his spirit is still so alive. the will to live looks strong. he couldn't move nor eat, yet he moves his feet and fingers and tells us he's exercising. (heart-poking moment)

friends? i know what's going on. don't know the conclusion. what's the point? life goes on.

job? i feel disheartened that i didn't get my 'dream' job. the one i wanted so badly. they haven't called. i assume they don't want me. i haven't sent any resumes since i went for the 3 interviews 3 weeks back. i wanna take a break for now, until at least after taiwan. but, a 2nd chance might be coming along. i will pray hard for that 2nd chance. i really want it. really quite badly. deep down, i feel rather despondent still.

money? taiwan's coming up. i don't know if i have enough. even these days, i don't seem to have enough to do what i wanna. i miss eating at fancy restaurants. i miss buying a gazillion pairs of shoes on a whim. i spend foolishly these days. smack me.

time-management. i seem to always have so much to do. so little time. i need to learn some better skills. i also need a lot of time for a good rest.

now, my friends are probably enjoying themselves at chomp chomp. feel so lonely at jon's home. he's sleeping cos he's been working so hard and is so tired. i've done a bit of packing. too tired to clean the floor, though i've been meaning to do so for the past 2 days. was too last minute to join them earlier. i can only fantasise about huge mugs of sugarcane and those sinful food while they gorge away.

i wanna say thanks for fg, john & eugene for dropping by so often while i was working at taka. the company for lunch/dinner or just small chat helped a lot. very much appreciated. and, jon who comes over to gimme a ride when i'm tired.

also wanna apologise to those whom i've neglected lately. the taka period was a superbly tiring, draining and exhausting one.

this must be punishment for missing church for the past 2 weeks due to work. let's hope things take a turn for the better.